They say "love" comes when you least expect it.
So I'm quitting.
I'm going to focus on other things, like the spiritual, the physical, school.
I was sick for a week and a half and didn't make it to the gym. But, I've been back a few times now, and even if I don't really see a difference in the mirror or on the scale, I feel different. I feel better and proactve.
Sometimes I feel so fat here in Provo, the land of skinny rail-thin women. It's hard to feel good about being sixty pounds lighter when you're still 20 pounds heavier than everyone around you. So, I watch The Biggest Loser. Those people are, shall we say, bigger than me! And when I see numbers like 347 pounds on their scale I feel a lot better about 144.8 pounds on my scale.
Anyway, so I quit love and the pursuit of it for awhile. Maybe I'll call it a sabbatical.
Oh, one funny quote from the Biggest Loser. Jillian was of course yelling at someone during a workout. This girl was on the treadmill saying she couldn't breathe or something, and this was Jillian's response, "When your lips turn blue, you pass out. But you're not gonna die." Oh, Jillian.